#MagicalMay2012 #Day2 Inception #Day3 Relationship

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So sorry for skipping the #MagicalMay2012 #Day2. Yesterday was very hectic day for me, fully booked. So, I’ll make this post for 2 parts of #MagicalMay2012. First part for #Day2 assignment, and the second one for #Day3 assignment.

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Tugas #Day2 Inception:
Tulis 9 hal yang kita syukuri tentang hari kemarin (1 Mei 2012) dan 1 pengalaman buruk yang baru kamu ketahui sekarang hikmahnya dan syukuri kejadiannya sekarang.

  1. My “single” status’ 1st Anniversary. Alhamdulillah~
  2. Crowned as The Queen of Galau. Haha. Semua gara-gara saya terlalu sering muncul di timeline twitter. :)
  3. Began to intensive exercise independently. Tetap dipantau sama penasihat teknis, sbm Khafif. :)
  4. Got 6 hours of  Dysmenorrhea, sickness of menstruation period. Biasanya bisa 2 hari sakit-sakitnya.
  5. Homey all day. There was no schedule for meeting with my adviser. :)
  6. Continued reading assignment, still have 4 books to read.
  7. Made a good meals for my family. I’m one of the best chef in my house. :)
  8. Turned off my heart’s feeling for this R-guy. Masih bisa dinyalain lagi kok, asal dia tau caranya aja. :)
  9. Chit-chat with my little sister before sleep. She always knows what exactly I need. :)
  10. I’m blessing for these broken heart feelings that I had in few years. Saya ini hobinya patah hati dan kata temen saya itu sesuatu yang bagus. Karena saya terbiasa merasa kecewa, jadi gak kaget lagi berhadapan dengan hidup yang dinamis ini. :)

Terima kasih. Terima kasih. Terima kasih Tuhan.

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#Day3  Relationships

  • Pilih 3 hubungan terdekat atau yang paling berpengaruh untukmu. Kalau ada fotonya, tatap foto mereka sebagai token untuk 5 hal TERBAIK tentang mereka yang amat kamu syukuri. Ucapkan terima kasih 3x kepada Tuhan karena telah menciptakan mereka.
  • Tulis 9 hal yang paling kamu syukuri atas hari kemarin (2 Mei 2012) dan 1 hubungan tersulit yang pernah kamu alami (orangtua, teman, siapa pun) yang sekarang kamu syukuri hikmahnya.

Here we go~

  1. Morning exercise. Walaupun susah bangun, tapi akhirnya latihan pagi juga.
  2. Nasi goreng for breakfast. Masih sempat bikin sarapan dan bekal untuk si bocah.
  3. Met my adviser. He knows me better than I thought.
  4. Got my renumerisasi. What a beautiful money. :)
  5. Got favorite chocolate for mood booster. Beli sendiri sih, tapi rasanya tetep enak.
  6. Still have time for tidur siang before night exercise.
  7. Gak kena hujan pas berangkat latihan.
  8. Hujan di malam hari. Ah, I always love the smell of rain in the night.
  9. Nasi goreng (again) for dinner. Biasanya saya selalu skip dinner.
  10. My hardest relationship? Gak termasuk hardest sih, tapi masih keingetan aja rasanya. Happened last month. Hikmahnya? Jangan cepet percaya sama omongan laki-laki yang udah 7 tahun gak pernah ketemu. Haha.

Tiga hubungan yang paling berpengaruh:

  • Relationship with my family. For the love, for the attention, for the support, for the warmness, and for the togetherness.
  • Relationship with my friends. Karena teman adalah keluarga yang kita pilih, begitu kata Mas Boy.
  • Relationship with the other me. Lebih seperti evaluasi diri. Saya sering komunikasi dengan diri sendiri. Lihat masalah dari sudut pandang yang lain. Dan itu semua cuma bisa dilakuin ketika saya benar-benar sendirian dan di tengah masalah yang cukup complicated.

Dear God, thanks for the loves around me. Thanks for the people. Thanks God, please bless them.

Cups~

M.

#MAGICALMAY2012 #DAY1: GRATITUDE LIST

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Tulis 10 hal yang kamu rasa pantas untuk kamu syukuri dalam hidupmu.
Akhiri list kamu dengan kata “Terima kasih” tiga kali.

Yeah, here I am. Trying to make a gratitude list for the things that I have during April.

I’m grateful for:

  1. A guy who suddenly came to my life and brought the colors for the beginning of April. I called him as R, my junior high school classmate on second grade. At least, he didn’t make me feel lonely in my birthday. Thanks, R. Thanks for everything. Thanks for all of your sweet words. I won’t expect anything from you anymore.. :)
  2. Jocy and Ridwan, my Taekwondo trainees who joined the match on April 6th, 2012. Thanks for the Gold and Bronze. Thanks for believing me as your coach in the court. Thanks for the chit-chat before final.
  3. Seminar Poomsae by YUTI. At least, I got a new knowledge about Taekwondo. Thanks for the Korean instructor. Thanks for the good-looking assistant instructor. And thanks for the free lunch.. :D
  4. Meeting with sbm Dior. Well, I don’t know what he was intended to me, but I was enjoying the practice session on his place. At least, he have a belief that I can fight in kyorugi field. Thanks for the trusts. Thanks for the tricks and tips. And thanks for the place, sbm.
  5. Job offers from my thesis adviser. I never expected for this kind of surprise. This lecture is extraordinary of kindhearted. Thank you, thank you, thank you so much, sir.
  6. Exercise program from Khafif. Thanks, pal, for believing me. Thanks for being there. Thanks for your support.. :)
  7. My lovely sister, Annug. Thanks for being my tukang-ojek. Thanks for sharing your story. Thanks for being nice with me.
  8. My old Daddy. Thanks for the meals, Dad. Thanks for your understanding of my fatigue. Thanks for being here when mom didn’t here.
  9. My big brother, Bang Dodo. Thanks for the breakfast. Thanks for the money. Thanks for the laugh that always fill this house.
  10. Mom. Thanks for your pray, momsky. Thanks for the spirit. Thanks for your everyday-call. Missing you so much, momsky. Wanna hug you, right now.. :’)

Dear God,
Please, bless them.

Cups~

M.

Birthday-Girl!

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I’m the birthday girl! Yeay!

Still twenty-something years old and it makes me so happpppppppyyy yipppiieee yeaayy!

Because of him, of course. He came to my life. Chit-chat and I loooovveee our convo!

Stay there, dear. You’ll never regret your decision. Hopefully, you can be here with me, soon.

Cups~

M.

For you, naughty boy..

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Dear you,

Thanks for the happiness that you give to me from your texts. I love it.
I never expected that we could do communication like this.

I like the way you said that you wanna be with me in your next life. I’ll wait until we can meet each other.

It has been 7 years, right? Do you miss me? Aah yeah, you are totally curious with me. Haha. Me, too. I’m totally curious with you.

Be nice in there, dear. I’ll wait for you patiently.

Cups~

M.

am I okay?

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There was a guy. I met him at February 2nd, 2008. It was four years ago. And in that moment, I felt nothing.

Actually, he has a good-looking face, charming, smart, and (almost) always give a good impression in the first meeting. He also always treat women well. No wonder if he is one of the lovable person in the world — okay, that sound too much.. :p

Anyway, that was only a short meeting because we met in the middle of the TKD match. We were both an athlete in the match and I also couldn’t remember his name well. I always be mixed up his name with his friend’s. Rrr, I had a poor memory.. :(

Next meeting, we met about five to six months later. My coach asked for help to accompany me in term to solve some problem that I made. And from that moment, I started to memorize his name. I knew his full-name, his habit, and I also remembered his smile and laugh. He impressed me well. And still, I still felt nothing.

Then, when did I felt something to him? I forgot. Perhaps, it began when I took a bet that was offered by my mom. Yeah, actually he was just my bet’s object — and I feel so wrong, now.

Actually, it was a hard attempt because I couldn’t in love easily. So, I had to pretend that I had a crush with him. In the beginning, I thought it would be easy. The fact, it was difficult. I didn’t know how to make him aware of my existence. So, I tried to text him on a holiday night. Yes, it was my first trial and please don’t ask how I get his phone number. It was all about coincidence.

I typed the message and sent it to his GSM number. Waiting with the messy feeling. And, voila! He replied my text with a phone call to my CDMA number. What a life! It was a surprise, especially I was a new person in his life. *giggles*

And maybe, I felt something from there, from a phone call on a holiday night. It was kinda sweet. We talked almost 3 hours and talked about everything, like how many siblings that he has, what his job, and also in the middle of the talk, I had a chance to flirt him.. :”>

Me: Kerja apa?
Him: Satpam.
Me: Kalo lo satpamnya, gue mau deh jadi malingnya.
Him: Kalo lo malingnya, gue ogah jadi satpamnya. haha.

Yeah, it was all about joking. I was giggling in a whole time. And, the phone call ended because it was 10 pm, time to take a bed with a bright smile.

From that moment, I assured myself — and my heart, to get him. I tried every way to make him came to me or my places, such as invited him to practice in campus or asked him to join the match. I also bought a new GSM number, that I’ve used until now, just for him.

I felt some changes from myself. I smiled more and there was a messy feeling every time I saw his name or his picture or even when I received a message from him. I was totally in love with him.

FYI, I’m not a patient person. I’m moody and kinda emotional. But… FYI, when I in love with him, I could be patient person. I could be someone who familiar with disappointment. I could be someone who said, “nevermind…” in every chance he cancelled the visit to my place. I was be blinded by him. I tried not to regret it.

After 3 months of approach term, I got a surprising news from him.

I am still remember the date, December 2nd, 2008. Tuesday morning, I arrived in campus early and checked my FB’s profile immediately. I read a post from him… Shocked!

He wanted to introduce me with his girlfriend in the match that will be joined by us!

Seriously? I re-read, and the message was still the same.

(sigh)

It was my first time to feel the pain of broken heart. The great pain of broken heart. Yes, there was a giant hole in my heart for a few weeks.

The match, he lost and so did I. Final exam was a nightmare and the holiday was terrible.

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Time goes by, do I feel something for him? I don’t know.

We became a good friend and I feel comfort with the friend-zone between us. He has broke up with his girlfriend and now, he seems like in a relationship with a lady. I don’t know certainly.

But, he still treat me well and give me some help. Sometimes he ask me some favor or ask me some question that can just be answered by the girl. Maybe, he wanted to know my point of view.

I always worried if he collapsed, sick.
I’m afraid something bad happens to him.
I tried to be looked normally when he introduced his girlfriend (again?).

It’s hard to pretend that I’m okay.

(sigh).

Yes, I’m still not okay.

Cups~

M.

Quick Update

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Hey!

I’ve finished my study and also my ‘hard’ thesis. It’s all done! Yeay.

And, two weeks ago I had the graduation day at February 25th, 2012.

For most of people, that was something special. The moment must be a memorable one, but for me it seems so plain. I didn’t get any surprise. Yes, I thought I didn’t deserve for it.

Even the appearance of my friend — my lovely friend actually, didn’t give a pleasure feeling. I saw him, we shook hand each other, we  smiled each other, and I left him to go back home early. I even didn’t take some photos with him. Rrrghh, it feels so wrong, guys.

(sigh)

Well, let me congratulate all my friends that had joined the graduation day, too.

Congrats, guys! We made it. Good luck for all of us. Keep dreaming and keep on spirit to reach it.

Cups~

M.

You Found Me

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You found me when no one else was lookin’
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through all of my confusion
The ups and the downs and you still didn’t leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me, you found me
(You Found Me – Kelly Clarkson)

Thanks for having found me, pal. You’re the one who knows me so well, until now.

And, I’m missing you so bad.

Could you come to Jakarta and meet me even just for a while?

I have a bunch of stories that should be shared with you.

Cups~

F.

Decision

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It’s all about decision for my life. My parent have a great influence in decision making process. I always asked to them, I always referred to their opinions before I could make a decision for everything.

Now, I try to make decision by myself without asking my parent, without caring another’s word. I try to responsible with my decision. And, I’m not a child anymore. I can take care myself, my life, and my business.

I hope it will be a right decision for my future.

Cups~

FC